Worship:Destroyed

I wasn’t supposed to lead worship this Sunday, but the one that was supposed to lead ended up getting sick. So I threw together a set Saturday night. Put together my Media Shout program for the service and off to church we go. Practice was ok seeing that I had no band because of no time to practice so I went at it solo this morning.

I really hate it when I have a good set together and perfectly destroy the Spirit because I’m forcing things to happen when maybe it wasn’t supposed to. I played the first song “Friend Of God” and it felt like I was the only one in the room. I couldn’t hear anybody singing and then when I got to the bridge, my paper had the key in “C” and I was playing in “B” and totally blew it cause I couldn’t transpose quick enough in my head where I was supposed to go. Do I go to a “G” or a “D” or maybe an “F# major”. I was lost and the song bombed.

So I tried to throw in a verse from Romans 8 about how we are not only children of God but we are joint heirs with Christ. During this time people were still walking in and I don’t think I had anyone’s attention. So that bombed too I believe.

After that I went into Better Is One Day, then into Indescribable, and this is when I thought we were nearing the end so I started to talk about what worship is when I looked at my sheet and noticed we still had to make it through Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone). After that was when we finally made it to Heart of Worship. By this time, I had the cold sweats, my fingers were getting numb and I was ready to get off the stage. Because IF the Spirit was moving, I didn’t feel it. So I was lost.

Everyone said worship was good but man, was I sweating to the oldies up there. I really felt I was dressed to the nines like Richard Simmons with head-band and spandex all thrown in. “Come on ladies. Step to it!”

I don’t know what the deal was but I just wasn’t feeling it this Sunday.